Friday, July 08, 2005

And so i kept my fingers crossed all the way from home, to school. BUt i guess luck went the other way. This is absolute bullshit. Haha. What have i been doing for the past 3 nights? Nothing but coming to school just to realise my final work saved in my ipod cannot be retrieved. And All Hopes Are Lost. Or is there any pieces left? I don't know. I'm so desperat for a savior right now. God, if you're gonna do something you have to do something quick. I spent 3 nights on this. I can't let it go down to the drain. BLEH. what am i saying? Has blogspot turned into ur confession to god? haha wtf. Ok i need sleep. I want to sleep. If there's anything else i can do now. It's to hug my baby to sleep now. She's the best ok. Yes i'm telling everyone she's the best.

I don't know.. I'm just too tired to know. Gotta work later. Where's my share of fun!!! ARGH! HAHA! I'M GOING CRAZY! MUAHAHA!!

"And I always find you here, at the time and place just when I thought this world was unfair."

Weenie l 9:11 AM

"& i dare you to forget, the marks you left across my neck."

Saturday, May 28, 2005

Ah. The final days of the holidays have arrived. Now it's times like these when everyone starts complaining about school reopening. Same goes for me, but it's a little different now. It's gonna be Year 2, its gonna be Tough, but i guess the hardest thing to accept is that i have to leave my group now. It's 1 year but it feels like there's just so much more.

This holiday spent with group 12, with the Ogls, with the seniors. I wouldn't say it's relaxing. We're like constantly given work to do, camps and orientations. Star Wars Video? Yeah all worn out during the holidays, but i'm sure we all shared the joy and laughter. I might keep telling everyone i spend more time in school than anywhere else this holiday, well... it's just another way of saying i had more fun than anyone else who wasn't part of this.

Well Group 12. Here's goodbye. To all our classes that we had together, well not exactly classes. But i could hear the girls gossip and giggle, i could hear the guys screaming laughing. I could see the girls giving us the weird look, i could see the guys doing stupid things all the time. Yeah even now i could picture everything in my head. Well we have made our own videos to keep it as our memories.

Haha. JiaWan. Tofu. I couldn't remember when was the first time we talked to each other, u're always so quiet. But 2nd sem you started to become really blur abt the things around u. That's like really funny jus looking at u look so blur. HAHA! Scared of clowns, but yeah i'll help u wallop them if they disturb u haha! u need to work on ur chinese though. Haha! Thanks for chatting up with me when i can't sleep these few nights. Although you couldn't even count what's 18-4, you're jus so entertaining. Sorry i was wrong about u being anti social towards guys at the very beginning, you're like 1 of the nicest girl i've met. =)

Wei Kit. I don't really have a nickname for u. But together we're Kit Kat. =). U, Aaron and I make a basketball team. When i play basketball in school i think if u or aaron were missing i'll feel lost. U helped me in my art works too. U helped the class. U deserve to be the top student than anyone else, not forgetting a good fren. Your talking, your ideas, always made sense. =D

Lynette. I think i talk to U face to face more than any of the girls. U just seem more sociable. True enough u r, and friendly too. I think u openly show ur concern for the girls. U keep them together, u tried keeping all of us together. Well done. And i think we all appreciate it. Hehe.

Desmond. Ah Long, OB kia. You're not so OB..lah. I think you've treated everyone with an equal share of respect. The Man of Man. Always ready to help your brothers. Most hardworking of all. Although every sentence of urs has a hokkien vagina in it, u're jus so kind. Thanks for all ur root beers and coke coming from ur refrigerator. Worms was definitely kick ass at ur place.

Yanling. I think you're complicated. That's when i think about how u r. But when we all hang out you're jus nice. Retro style i see, or i think? Hehe. In any case i remembered u caring for me at beginning of this poly life. U let me know that i wasn't such a sucker for girls after all. Sometimes ur talking and pronounciation pains my ears, i jus couldn't hear u clearly. But ur meaningful speeches, or typing has been heartfelt. ;)

Fadzli. Thanks for not looking down on me cause i sucked at skating. But you taught me alot about it too. Listening to loud music with me. Taking photos of u skating. Totally amazing, DUDE. haha! All this joking about asking u whether ya wanna eat bak gua, don't take it ta heart yea? I know you don't, that's what makes u cool man. Thanks for joining us in jumping off the platform and into the 4m deep sea even though u couldn't swim. Skate hard man. i'll join u jus to make u look good some time soon.

Siti. or Ain. Till now i still don't know which to call ya. Ok. I sat beside u at billy bombers and i can't but think why you're so quiet. Couldn't find myself a good reason but yeah if you really talked i think you could make us all laugh. From my point of view u really are Blur_queen87. Haha. Not only u talk blur u look blur. But it's the feminine look that's all over you. Thanks for letting me there's still someone gentle amongst this group of girls. HEHE

Chia Choon. You're so selfless. Kind and caring. I think people don't really think you are frank with ur comments, but i think u r. But if u tell me my work isn't good i'll thank u. You're so honest. It makes u a really nice guy. Thanks for "acting cute" in class. U giggle like u're some kinda freak. Haha but it's funny. Now i wished i had known u better. It would've been nice

Karen. Man-ju-sri. ISSIT? I don't know how to spell it. Neither do i know why Gab and all uses that to poke fun at u. But i think even if it is packed with bad pple. You're just not one of them. Not even from the looks of it. You jus look so innocent! haha! Always steady abt everything eh? That's nice and hard to come by. Just too bad u don't play bball anymore. We could use someone as tall as u in our team. Haha oh yeah i've always missed the chance to tell u u'll make a fine model. =)

Gabriel. You've been a fren that appeared in an extraordinary time. Just when i really needed to know more about music, i met you. You've taught me alot. We just have so much in common. You're one guy who's been there for me when i'm feeling low. It's jus so nice to know Prawn head is here to crack up some jokes when you're lost or stress. Storyboarding was never a success without u. Neither was anything else this class did without u. Oh yeah! Thanks for teaching me the songs i always wanted to play on the guitar!

Wei Fang. Hmmm. I think of butterflies, i think of u. I don't know why. Haha! Ok. You've been skipping lessons in the past, so didn't really get the chance to talk to u about anything at all. But if we talked it would be about basketball. But ya know? You've got the talent for this course, and you've got the brains for almost anything else. Put it into good use yeah? Cos i'm jealous of ur talent.. hehe jk! But i guess we're alil different on our opinions for girls. ADMIT IT U ACT CUTE. HEHE jkjk.

Hanzhong. You're jus away from us all the time. So my only impression of u is. You always have the way to make us laugh. And i mean Always. Although i don't say it. I'd wish you'll join in the fun more often. Then we could all laugh together. I know you're bothered by personal affairs. But no matter how u look at us, we're still ur frens. Open up to us whenever ya want yea? Steady Steady!

Eejia. Not EEEEEEEjia right?. That was the first sms u sent me, i remembered. PRAISE ME. You're such an anime freak. Sometimes u talk real nice. And your nose is always so red. It makes u look like you're down with flu or something. Haha I always remembered you joining us guys for lunch sometimes. Thanks for not minding that you r the only girl at those times. Honestly sometimes u're weird, but yeah down inside i feel you're someone nice. be yourself. it's all u need =)

YingZhong. Holely Man. Blood brothers? haha! That's probably the only thing i couldn't understand about you. But besides that. I think you're a boy with a very clear mind of what you wanna say. You describe things very well, so well that i think i feel it. Don't look so sad all the time man. And i know alot has been going through your mind sometimes. Feel free to share! When I was low i received and Sms from u. U cared and i felt it. You've been amazing in making efforts for the whole group. U deserve the trophy.

Aaron. AJC. Birdman. I don't know. I'm really glad we can continue being in the same class. I really have to say i like ur presence around the class. How do we even laugh without u around? Thanks for pushing me all the way when i really tot my work sucked. Playing basketball together. Spending nights at my place and desmond's place rushing paintings and all the work in the world, i would say impossible without you keeping me awake. I know sometimes it's hard to cooperate with me. But thanks for bearing it all jus to work things out. I think everyone would agree the joy u brought to us meant the most.


Alright. That's about it. Group 12, Green Bottle Flies Studios, or whatever. For all the times we've spent together. Let's keep this group going even after the new semester begins. Say a hello when we see each other. Meet up once a week. Give each other some love. I'll definitely miss everyone and all the times we spent together. So no matter where we're headed for now, don't forget to look back on this memories we had yeah? i'll be seeing u guys around !

Weenie l 4:29 PM

"& i dare you to forget, the marks you left across my neck."

Friday, March 25, 2005

Oh yeah~ Today, in fact right now, marks the third month of Kim and I. So alright this entry will be all about us. Hmmm...How do i go about it. First day was at AMKCC.. that's where we met. can't deny that it was all at first sight. Then we got to know each other better. Then was all my suffering days of her whacking me upside down. Haha jkjk. Last christmas was memorable, the most i would say. Now it's been the 3rd month for us. Don't really know what else to say but, it's really enjoyable to be with her, even for a minute or a second. I guess i'm real lucky, to be the only one who's able to know how sweet she really can be to a boyfriend.. I know sometimes i tick u off, bring u down or hurt u in a way or another. And i feel the guilt that no matter whenever that happens, u'd still be there for me, forsaking how u feel, ur time for urself. It's what makes u so perfect to me.

Maybe there's really no such thing as forever, i have come to learn. But i know i'm dead serious about her. 3 months is just the beginning of everything good that's gonna come. I can feel it. And that's why i'm really happy. Honey if you're reading this. I love u for everything u r and everything u're not. Thank u for my everyday. =)

Weenie l 12:32 AM

"& i dare you to forget, the marks you left across my neck."

Saturday, February 19, 2005

It's Alive! It's alive!

Here i come, into this dead place, bringing revival once again.

Haha.

I know i haven't been blogging lately. Anyone noticed tat i'm back again, please raise up ur hands and let me know.

A lot has happened. So major changes are going to take place now.

This is my revolution. I'm sorry but some people have to get out of my life now.

People i want to forget, since they've already decided on forgetting me.

Isn't this sweet. We all get what we want.

Basketball still rules. And i'm so inspired to play drums and guitar.

I WANNA GO JAMMING AGAIN.

Weenie l 1:11 AM

"& i dare you to forget, the marks you left across my neck."

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Feels like i'm lying on the ground and life laughs and kicks at me all around.. while she sings to a melody. while i feel..

so for how long must i stay a loser..

So tired. just feel like letting my efforts go to a waste. but then again i could nv do that.

what's wrong with me?

what do i lack?

why look down on me?

i really can't do it?

Shit. Fuck. I need a cure. I'm falling into pieces. Don't try to understand me. No one ever will.

Weenie l 10:06 PM

"& i dare you to forget, the marks you left across my neck."

Saturday, December 11, 2004

Yesterday was a day of sushi. Went to eat sakae sushi with the basketball boys. The buffet was worth it. But we ate so much that we couldn't walk, and most of us almost puked. I'm dead serious. haha. We played missing numbers and the loser ate. Yep and poor Benjamin. He really ate alot. Haha.

Fun!

Today james wanted to come over to seek refuge from his part time maid waking him up at 9am. So yeah he came over and we played computer games till kh joined us. Then we continued playing. KOTOR jus keeps getting better.

Around 7 we met up with minshan at compass point to have dinner at KFC. Service was slow-mo. Bad bad. But i had my fill. Then we went over to james place to watch soccer. Liverpool 0 - 1 Everton. Not that i'm a fan of soccer but it's fun screaming here and there. Cheers.

Home.

Ponder. Ponder.

Yep. U guessed it. The only think i could be thinking about are girls recently. haha NO LA. Basketball of cos. Sigh. I'm disciplining myself to be a full time basketballer now. After i get my new shoes. I'm gonna make sure i equip myself with bball attire everyday, bring bball ta school and play whenever i have time. And shiaat, i need new bball. Mine's totally rotten.
All along, I dare say, i've been trying so hard to improve and improve and improve. But all this while i see the same old me. The same old small boy trying and pushing his way to the top, trying to put the ball into the ring but it jus won't go in. That loser kinda feeling.. ya know? I don't know how many people feel this way too. But i know i'm bloodthirsty for something good out of myself. I want it so badly that i think i'm crazy. I know all it takes is practise. I've been doing that all these while. I'm seriously trying hard.

What caused me to be so into this sport. I'm not really sure anymore but i know what keeps me going. Passion. I'm a true blue underdog, i'm proud to say. I hope i'll last. I want to be a player that the team trusts. I am a sub-bench, no more !

Weenie l 11:22 PM

"& i dare you to forget, the marks you left across my neck."

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Something talked me into updating tarnight. And so i shall. Yes, i am still alive, spending my days playing basketball. But i'm all broken down. Tired, restless. Not enough sleep i guess.

It's amazing how a ball a ring and urself can make u feel so good. haha. Again and again and again. All i have to do is listen to the sound of the ball going into the ring. It's adrenaline and it makes me hype. So unexpectable, like saving up ur best move for the finishing. Ok the more i talk about it the more i wanna play right now. But yea, there's a price to pay and that's to waste up all ur energy for all these consecutive days of basketball.

X'mas around the corner. Still i'm broke and jobless. I need skills upgrade. I need re-training. I LOVE MONEY. MONEY. And i learnt that "Winning isn't everything, just that it's the only thing that matters" Yes so i must strive to win win win. Win...erm...basketball, love, MONEY.

Finch, Funeral For A Friend make my day everyday. We should all buy their cds.
But once again i'm broke. Hafta save MONEY. Don't wanna make it a disappointing christmas. Santa out. HOHOHO FUCK U ALL

Weenie l 11:02 PM

"& i dare you to forget, the marks you left across my neck."